Small Miracles Blog Hop # 2

I was going to skip this blog hop this month because I really thought I covered everything in my happy list. But this morning when I heard "Hellloooooo...." on my baby monitor, I quickly realized I have a small miracle at home whom I adore and kiss on all the time. I really miss Jeremiah, I really love him, and I still don't quite understand why he is gone. However, I have to remember that all my babies are miracles. Here physically or not.

I think back four years ago when I did not think having children was ever going to be possible for me. I thought Jose and I were destined to be just "Jose and Raquel". On January 6, 2008 everything changed, I found out I was pregnant for the first time-M's pregnancy was a suprising one. When he was born in July I realized what life really meant. I always knew that I wanted my kids to be close in age so I knew a sibling was something I wanted for him. My brother and I are 8 years apart and our relationship got better after M was born, unfortunately when Jeremiah passed away he was there for the first month but I know the mention of Jeremiah makes him nervous. Last March, I found out about Jeremiah. I was happy my kids would be close. Once he died in July I realized how fragile life is....

I guess I feel like I am rambling but my point is my miracles small or big are my kids. M has been my light through this whole ordeal and the thought of my rainbow brings me hope. Jeremiah brings faith.

I saw this bible verse in M's bible after Jeremiah passed away- "I will turn your sadness to gladness."- Jeremiah 31:13     I believe it!